Somethings never change

trying to figure out if this is good or bad

caught between friends n foes in my mind

not sure if i wanna be out of this dilemma or am i enjoying this once again

so many things that need my attention yet

these thoughts make me wonder n digress

so many things that can change, are in need of change, must be changed

yet it seems to be an eternity since they have changed

not sure if somethings that never change - need to be changed or chained as they r

where r these thought leading me to...

i am guiding them or r they leading me to no mans land

so much confusion that i am not thinking of rapidly changing me

so much stagnation that i am still not thinking of rapidly changing me

so much... so much ... so much yet so little is in my mind...

it is affected by things which hold no meaning in my heart

it is reacting to actions unintentional and not for me

where is the love n warmth i felt within me for life

where is all this mess found way into my life

it was simple n i made it so....

but did i do it knowingly or just that i wanted to change and face the world the way it is

am i being guided by the waves of worldliness

am i ready to be tamed....???

NO... i will not let this be... i will make my way through to the end...

n i will smile coz i WANT to smile

i will make my feelings felt by my heart....

I WILL... I WILL... I WILL not let somethings change yet will make some changes....