Confusions....

"To be or not to be" was a thought.... but my mind has more things associated with it, to do or not to do, to think or let it be, to make hay while it shines or just give in, to even dream or just be awake and walk though life. No clue where are my thoughts leading me to or am i the one leading them into this confusion.

At times that smile on my little ones face makes me thing that every thing is OK and we will service just fine, but the next day the questions in his mind make me re-think. At times the way he will hold me to sleep is what makes me thank god for his love, but then makes me cry to that why have i denied him that exposure to the world.

after all the turmoil when i got up today, i was happy and found that everything in life has a flip side and so does my mood.... :D

the other day....

...the other day i was asked to pen down my thoughts and some how they got lost... today i am sitting back and trying to recall that smile and those eyes looking directly in the 'zero' domain...

it was amazing how the moon shone on the car glass and made those eyes lost in pink floyd music look even more enticing than the eyes which look at u yet are not there.... as if they can see past everything....

it was amazing I had just given that look only a passing thought till the time the Leather Jacket did not surface back up in front of my eyes... they made me go back in memory and made me realize that some where some how things are not lost for me and i still do look out for the moments when everything is a bliss and like a fairy tale...

met those eyes again the other day and realized they r the same every time coz they may be looking out for something more to see in some other rainbow horizon....

I know this may be sounding too dreamy but then its my thought after all....