Uncertainty in life's decisions....

Sometimes I wonder where is the life coming from ad where is it exactly leading to…. There are so many things I do not understand and they can not be explained also so why do these things come up and why do we spend time thinking about them… where are the energies saving us from the evil (if it exists), why are they not there showing the path which has to be enlightened. So if they are not there should I look for my path on my own….. wow this is the correct method.
So now that its decided that I need to decide my own path and trot on it as well… let me chart the way… but its all so unclear…. What do I want is non tangible so what can I put against it to be realized in real… peace and harmony with myself… is it a right thing t ask for in life…. Where can I get the life which is suitable for me???

Wait a minute… now my mind is blocked and I am back to this world…..

the shattering effect.....

yesterday i smiled and then today of course I cried...

that how it has been always and this is how it will be n my life always...

no clue how i survive this world and no idea how its gonna help in life either....

but i know one thing for sure...i can live the dream i spun for my self... not so long ago...

some day it will be that day when i will not regret the decisions lived by me....

some day it will be that day when i will smile without thinking about the sorrows behind...

just wondering when will that day come in my life....

no one can answer that for me... coz no one will ever know that what i is in store for me....

Lack of words….

There is a flood of emotions creeping up my throat,
followed by the drought of expressing words…
time has finally come when I should be speaking up,

but some how I find myself stuck in the twist of feelings and not speaking up after all.....

Trotting on my way to…eternity…

The dream has been spun…and formatting begun,
The path has been laid and waiting to be begun,
Everything materialized still nothing yet has begun…

Mo matter how much it takes… this is a path I wanna take,
I wanna walk that extra mile and reach out to that forbidden fruit,
I wanna break this unseen shackle holing me back…
...hoping this time i actually do...

Need I say more....

High heels, flowing gown

a princess to be,

waiting for the crown..

No matter how much we try,

the land of dreams...

is just always a step away

Clues to perfect life are seen

paths for perfection are followed

yet somewhere plans are missed...

Someday, someone is gonna come

and then with those dreams revived...

we will all move into paradise.....

Illusions shatter...

Illusions shatter,
dreams do come to an end,
life departs and begins the journey of death.
When suddenly death lets loose
and breath gets a chance again.
This is how the good
and the bad come to an end.

The day feels incomplete,
and night feels empty
and the moon cries out
“where are you?”.
I am left alone in the wilds
to find my own way.
All loose hold on me
and I go astray.

Hold me and get me back to control,
Snatch my heart from getting cold.

The dark blue sky
and the light blue stars,
interest my wandering mind
and I find myself flying.

Why is it that
when chains of life are open,
you long for the shackles?
Sleep! Oh! Sleep!
I beg you to take over
and let my body and soul rest in your arms
like they once rested.

Come in my dreams
but be prepared to be broken,
coz… I have realized…
Illusions shatter… and dreams do come to an end…

believe it or not...

i have finally closed that chapter in my life,

i have moved on NOW...finally...

it was not difficult as i had imagined it to be.

door to the past is now shut,

for good and forever...

let me move on now,

without reminding me of all the closures,

without all the hope of accomplishing the lost dreams...